One thing I’m struggling with right now is the fact that I am gaining weight.
About 8 pounds. I know…you’re thinking 8 pounds…hmmm. That’s not a lot. But for someone who started this fitness journey at 100 pounds, this weight gain is really freaking me out. I guess it’s because most people measure their fitness achievements in weight loss. Maybe I didn’t have anything to lose?
I know that I have been eating really healthy, have cut out alcohol-ish (except on special occasions), and have kept my daily caloric intake between 1300-1700 calories. I also workout about five times a week, and this isn’t the typical “get on the elliptical and sweat a little” workout; if I’m not doing Les Mills BodyPump, BodyAttack or CXWorks, then I’m running at least a 5k or lifting on my own.
I’m not 100 percent sure, but I’m pretty sure that this weight gain can can only be attributed to muscle growth. And maybe because I’m working outside for a few hours everyday in the heat – I’m drinking more water and I feel like my body is swelling…can a person’s body swell from warm/hot temperatures?
Anyways, aside from trying to eat healthier and in a way that will fuel my activity level, my workouts have intensified in the past year. I know I’m gaining muscle; the way my body is cut is very different than it was last summer. I actually have abdominal muscles now, which protrude a bit on my tiny stomach. This is new. When you go from being skinny and having no stomach to having muscles grow where they have never been, it’s a little weird and I’m not exactly sure how to feel about it.
My body has changed (and is changing) into what I can only describe as an “athletic build”. I was never “cut” before, and now I can really make out the definition in certain areas without flexing. During BodyPump, I look at myself in the mirror and ask, “Is this the girl who used to despise fitness?” She is now obsessed. She now has definition. What happened to this girl who was afraid to sweat?
I’m also so much stronger and faster. I never thought I would be capable of doing some of the things I do in the gym or on runs. And to be quite honest, I didn’t even know this level of fitness existed. Now, I’m really getting intense in my workouts and pushing myself to the max. And I love the way it makes me feel. I love being fast. I love lifting challenging weight in BodyPump or not taking a break and going all out during Attack. The pool of sweat on the floor is proof that I’m working hard. It’s like I’m proving that I can do what once wasn’t possible.
But I’m still adjusting to the changes I see in my body.
If I showed you a before and after photo, you might even think, “Hey she looks BIGGER after“. So I have this dilemma because I don’t feel like I’m being a good fitness example. Sure, I’m strong and my endurance is great, but I feel like there’s nothing to show in terms of weight loss. I’m also not eating like a rabbit, because I am a foodie, and I workout to be able to enjoy good food (yes, like pork belly and fried things). This means that I’m not all muscle because my dietary habits aren’t all carrots and celery. You get what I’m saying?
So that’s my dilemma.
Question: Are there any tiny people out there who have put on weight and muscle since working out? Did it bother you? Was it visible? Did you change your routine at all?
On a more positive note, at least I could probably reach the required weight to give blood now – 110 pounds!
I’m not very fast. In fact, my running pace is just enough to be considered “running”.
But running isn’t about beating the person next to you; it’s about accomplishing something for yourself. It’s about improving your personal speed by five seconds every week. It’s about running just .5 mile more without stopping than you did yesterday.
Our bodies are all different, and no matter how great of shape you’re in, sometimes you just aren’t able to run a 7 minute mile. Even if you’re at a 10 minute (or more)/mile pace, you’re still running. And that’s amazing.
Two weekends ago, on April 13th, I got to run in the Ukrop’s Monument Avenue 10k, which is one of my favorite races. When I first ran this race in Spring 2011, I fell in love. It was (and still has been) one of my longest races at 6.2 miles. The first year I ran, it was pretty chilly, and then last year, it was drizzly and cool (my favorite running weather), but this year, it was a beautiful, sunny 60 degree day.
The Monument Avenue 10k is such a friendly race, and I believe it is in the top 10 of America’s most popular races. There were 32,000 runners to complete the race this year! It’s also incredibly organized with like 30 something start-time waves, a lot of water stops, a post-race party and meeting area, shuttles to the race, and even a bike valet! It is run down and back one of America’s only historically recognized streets, Monument Avenue, which is absolutely beautiful and dotted with a handful of monuments recognizing great American leaders. Part of it is run on cobblestones, which makes for a more challenging course, but it is relatively flat. It is a wonderful “first” race, if you are looking for something longer than a 5k or have been running for a while, and trust me, if you’ve never done a race before, you will be addicted to running afterwards. There are also walker waves – it’s a family friendly race!
The community support along the route is amazing. People standing on the sidewalk, cheering, clapping…clowns, cheerleaders, dancers, great signs like “I’d run, but who would hold this sign!” and “Free beer for quitters” (people are partying on their front decks and balconies along the course). I see red solo cups and I run faster, if you know what I mean. Bands line the street, bubbles are in the air. It’s so much fun. I am also really proud of my hometown for putting together an organized, exciting race every year that thousands come to participate in. Great job RVA! And props to SportsBackers, the non-profit that organizes many of the region’s races!
Okay, to be honest, about mile 4, you might feel like you’re dying and want to quit. But it’s still fun.
I really hadn’t set a “goal” time this year because I didn’t have a lot of time to train. Of course, as a runner, we all like to do better than our previous PR (Personal Record). And I ended up being decently happy with my time which was…
58 minutes, 10 seconds. The exact same time as last year. To the second. Well, at least I can say I’m consistent. However, my 5k split was faster, which bodes well for future 5k races!
Mom and Dad drove me to the race and watched this year. Also, they probably saw me at my worst, at like mile 5.5 when I was kind of dying a little. Still, it was great to have their support!
And then, I rode a runner’s high for the rest of the afternoon before the soreness hit the next day. Runner’s high = Best feeling in the entire world. I drove back to the DC area on Monday, but since I’ve been back, I’ve been nursing some weird stomach issue and haven’t felt like running, but I feel like I’m finally getting back to normal. I’m excited to lace up my shoes for my next run though. Maybe the next race will be a half-marathon? Maybe? Who knows!
My heart absolutely breaks for the runners, volunteers and spectators in Boston yesterday. As a runner myself, and having just finished the Monument Avenue 10k in Richmond that over 32,000 people completed, I was in disbelief that someone could be filled with such evil and selfishness to destroy a day that is supposed to be filled with happiness and celebration.
While I share, along with the rest of the world, the disbelief and sadness of these events, I wanted to take a different route in the words I’ve decided to put here. Instead of writing about the bad, I wanted to write about the event that this evil affected. I want to write about the power of running.
Why do we run?
We run to clear our heads when life gets stressful.
We run to prove to ourselves that we are capable of doing what we thought we could not.
We run to show ourselves that we can overcome.
Running takes dedication and commitment. We lace up our shoes before the sun rises, or hit the pavement after a long day of work. We trudge up hills and feel the sweat dripping down our faces. It teaches us transformation through dedication. Generally, in life, we don’t get to where we want to be overnight or without frustration, maybe even failure at first. To experience both physical and mental transformation, a lot of diligence, persistence and patience come into play. Success doesn’t come overnight. Running teaches us that.
To me, running has always been a metaphor for life. Things get tough. We face adversity. Last year, a few weeks before I ran the 2012 Monument Avenue 10k, I had my heart broken. I was devastated because I had made a life with this person, and I didn’t know what direction my life was going to take without him. But I was set on running this amazing race that over 40,000 people from all over the country and world come to participate in – a wonderful mass of humanity. I knew that the spectators and the positive encouragement along the course would be one of the best cures for sadness. And on mile 4, when I started to get my runner’s high, I remember telling myself that I was capable of anything. In that moment, I could fly if I wanted to. I didn’t need another person to make me feel some sense of worth.
Running helped, and still helps me when things get difficult.
Running teaches us resilience. There are times we want to stop and give up. Our minds tell us we’re through, we’re done, we’re going to pass out from fatigue. That we are defeated. There are days where we have sub-par runs, but we must get up tomorrow. The sun rises and it’s a chance to begin again. A new day; a new run. One thing runners learn very early on is that we must be resilient, as our bodies are strong enough to keep pushing forward. In running, and in life, we are stronger than we thought.
We can get through this.
We can get through the events of Boston, Aurora, Sandy Hook, and Virgina Tech. We’re resilient, but we never forget. Our lives move forward, and if anything, they move forward in a fashion where we hold the people close to us dear, where we remember to say “I love you”, where we don’t let the trivial things get to us as much. We enjoy life. We smile more. We take time out to help and be there for others. We realize, life is precious. And simultaneously, when humanity bands together in times of turmoil, we discover, we are loved.
We also see that race events, whether it be a 5k, 10k, half-marathon, or the full 26.2 bring out the absolute best in people.
I posted this as my Facebook status yesterday, and I’ll close this post with the same thoughts:
“The thing I love most about races is the feeling of “oneness” between total strangers. There’s so much love and support for people we don’t even know; people cheering you on with words of encouragement, giving free high fives and countless smiles that keep you pushing forward when you want to stop, when things get tough. Running races reminds me there’s still good in the world. There are still people on your side. Thoughts and prayers to all the people at the Boston Marathon today.”
This is really, really belated, I know. However, I recently got into to maintaining my blog on a regular basis and I wanted to save this fun post for a time when I am nurturing my blog like a good blog mamma should. I also hadn’t been following many blogs at this point, so wanted to wait until I could pass this recognition onto some deserving bloggers 🙂
Anyways, back in January, I was selected by Becky at BEPCITY for the Liebster Award! She, like me, blogs about many different topics and experiences. Thanks for the award! What exactly is the Liebster Award? It’s an award given by a fellow blogger to up-and-coming bloggers with less than 200 followers. Also, did you know that “Liebster” means “dearest” in German? Interesting facts.
Here are the rules:
Share 11 facts about yourself.
Answer the awarder’s 11 questions.
Ask 11 questions of your own.
Nominate 11 bloggers.
Facts About Me!
1. I can’t wear adult size shoes. They aren’t made in my size! I think my feet stopped growing in elementary school and I currently wear a CHILDREN’S size 2/2.5. Even an adult size 4 (when you can find them, which is rare) doesn’t fit me! I find most of my shoes at Target…sometimes I can find shoes at this specialty small-footed person website called Cinderella of Boston.
2. I am half-Chinese and half-Caucasian (some sort of German/Scottish/English mutt). I’ve gotten asked “What are you?” ever since I can remember – some of the way off guesses…Hawaiian, Italian, Hispanic of some sort. Also, my dad is Chinese – most people assume it’s my mom.
3. The farthest I’ve traveled is to Vietnam. In total, I’ve been to 8 foreign countries. Wish it could be more!
4. I transferred colleges three times. I started at American University (freshmen year), then went to Virginia Commonwealth University (for one semester), and then The College of William & Mary for the rest of my college career. I’m so glad I ended up at W&M! Also, I only went to VCU for one semester because it was close to home and I missed the deadline to apply to W&M.
5. I’m addicted to Diet Coke. I can’t break the habit.
6. Growing up, I was a HUGE theatre kid. I spent five consecutive summers performing with a teen theatre company. I went to the same performing arts school Jason Mraz went to in Richmond. I did so much theatre in high school. Even though I didn’t major in theatre in college, I took two acting classes and I still try and fit the extracurricular theatre “thing” in whenever I can.
7. When it comes to food, I’ll try everything once. Like weird stuff. Like intestines and all the nasty bits. Part of growing up in a half-Chinese family, I guess!
8. When I was a little kid, I wanted to be a roller coaster designer. Too bad I suck at math…
9. I am a Delta Gamma!
10. I was a huge Alias fan in middle/high school. I didn’t want my parents to know I was watching it for like the first two seasons because it was somewhat violent, so I would always make up some lie that I was watching something else upstairs and they wouldn’t bother me. Then my mom found out I was watching it and she got equally as hooked on it! I’m currently re-watching all the seasons on DVD!
11. When my high school senior class voted for superlatives, I was voted the “most outspoken” and “most flirtatious” female. When we took pictures for the yearbook, I had to take the picture with my ex-high school boyfriend who got voted “most flirtatious” male, and who, at the time, I despised. Pretty sure I lack all ability to flirt now, but I am still very outspoken.
1. What is your favorite/go-to item in your wardrobe?
Probably my jeggings, leggings, or skinny jeans. They are perfect to wear with a cute, long top. And yes, I do consider them pants for you haters out there.
2. If you could be on any reality show, which one would it be?
Anthony Bourdain’s “No Reservations”, even though the final season aired last year. I love him and I’d love to show him my hometown!
3. Have you ever had braces?
I had braces in 5th grade to 7th grade! They were absolutely horrible and I also had rubber bands at one point too! I remember the day I got them was the day right after Halloween – horrible timing! About two hours after they put them on, one of the brackets fell off my bottom teeth (they had only put a wire in the top at the first visit). I was so upset and crying because I thought it was my fault, but apparently it happens a lot. In better news, I found out I was getting them off the visit right before the final visit. I feel like most people know months in advance, and it came as a welcomed surprise to me!
4. What was the first CD/cassette you ever purchased?
It was a classical music CD from the bargain bin at Wal-Mart. I’m a nerd.
5. What drink do you order at a restaurant?
Non-Alcoholic: Diet Coke | Alcoholic: Vodka soda or a local beer, if they have it.
6. What kind of camera do you use?
I was using a Canon Elf (I think?) but now I just use my iPhone 5 camera because it’s actually better quality and I can do all the fun Instagram filters and such. I would love a DSLR camera, but I’m poor so that is not happening.
7. If you could change your name to anything what would you choose?
I like my name as it is now, however, in middle school I wanted to be called “Star”. What a weirdo!
8. Do you now or did you ever play on any sports teams?
No sports for me growing up. But I run and spend a lot of time in the gym now.
9. If you formed a band what would your name be and what kind of music would you play?
I love indie-pop-rock music, so the music would probably be like Mumford & Sons or The Avett Brothers. I’m horrible with band names. However, those image capture things you type into so the computer knows you’re human always comes up with some catchy phrases. I’ve always thought those would be good, unique band names.
10. Who was your first celebrity crush?
Pierce Brosnan as James Bond.
11. Do you subscribe to any magazines?
I actually started subscribing to Glamour after my mom had a mysterious subscription to it last year. Ironically, I got a mysterious subscription to large print Reader’s Digest. And the secret subscriptions were sent to different addresses and my address I only lived at for one year. We think the subscriptions got mixed up (she should have gotten the Reader’s Digest, as she’s mid-50s and mid-twenty me should have gotten the Glamour). We asked everyone we knew and still can’t figure out who subscribed us. Anyways, I ended up loving Glamour, so I resubscribed this year!
What I Want to Know!
1. If you could travel anywhere, where would it be and why?
2. What was your favorite subject in school (high school or college)?
3. What is your favorite season – winter, spring, summer, or fall – and why?
4. If you had to pick a “last meal” (sorry to be morbid, I’m a foodie), what would it be?
5. Are you an early morning or late night person?
6. Do you have any pets?
7. Have you ever dyed your hair any crazy colors?
8. Did you have a favorite teacher? Who was it?
9. How many cell phones have you lost?
10. What’s the weirdest thing you’ve ever eaten?
11. Do you have a favorite quote? If so, what is it?
Here are the blogs I’ve nominated! I’ve mostly been frequenting food/thrifting/travel blogs so check these out if any of those topics interest you!
I’ve been trying to get my workouts done in the AM so I can go home in the evenings and relax/get things done/cook, etc. This morning, I woke up at 4:45 am (I was already weirdly awake and couldn’t get back to sleep), and headed down to the gym. The place I moved has workout facilities, which are really like one treadmill, a stationary bike, and some weight machines from the 1970s. It sucks when you want to use the treadmill and someone is on it, but usually I can find it free. The other apartment buildings in the complex have workout rooms, but the treadmills are on uneven ground and they make a horrible noise (the one in my building is on carpet). It’s so convenient to be able to go down to the basement, or run on the W&OD trail right near the apartment when the weather is nice.
Here’s one issue: There’s this older lady with a severe attitude problem who, when she saw me enter the workout room this past Monday morning at 6 am, told me that ‘nobody ever comes down to the gym that early except her, and she needs to use the treadmill and walk for an hour because she has an injury’…and implied, ‘don’t try to use the treadmill in the morning’ between 5:30 am – 7 am. If she didn’t have such an attitude the first time she spoke to me, I maybe would adjust my workouts, to fit her needs, but, I, too need the treadmill in the morning. If I get the treadmill first, I’m going to use it until I am done. You snooze, you lose! Wow, DC has turned me into a biatch, huh? I kind of felt a little bad because I was on mile 2 when she came in…she asked how much longer I would be just as I was hitting my runner’s high, and I told her 10 minutes, and it ended up being 20. Hey! I was having a good run that turned into 4.25 miles! I figure that if I can start my run at 5:15 am, she can use the machine at 6 am, which was when she started using it the first time I saw her. Oh, and can I also say, she brings in a radio with a 2 foot antenna that has to be plugged in. Classy.
Anyways, I’m trying to do this morning thing because I’ve been lacking some serious willpower to spend another 2 hours in the gym after a long workday; my energy levels are really low, and I also have a problem with feeling nourished enough to have a satisfying workout. I also am a huge grouch at the end of the day and the gym feels like a huge chore. But this morning, once I started going, I felt so calm and clear-minded.
I’m also training for the Monument Ave 10k, which is my favorite race ever! It’s seriously so much fun, and this year, I’m starting in a 58 minute seeded wave. Hopefully, I can beat my PR from last year, but if I don’t, it’s not the end of the world.
Kind of unrelated to this morning but…I have an extreme love-hate relationship with running.
Running is so awesome. I love a good runners high around mile 2.5. I love that I can listen to my own music and jam out during a run! I love that I can measure my improvement by speed and distance, and I can see visible changes both negative and positive. I love when I can run outside and in nature…looking at trees and flowers, or shops and pretty houses. It makes you feel strong and healthy and can be exhilarating at times. And when you are done, all is good with the world. Races are so much fun, all the supportive people cheering you on, the chance to run for a good cause, free goodies…and you get to compete against yourself – be your personal best.
Issues I have with running: Hard on knees and ankles; seasonal (I just want to run outside in the mid 60s!); some days are good and some days really suck and you can’t be fast; treadmills are dreadmills; can get boring; for some reason, it makes my stomach hurt so I have to watch what I eat before I run.
Anyways, do you workout/run in the morning? How do you motivate yourself to get up and going? How would you deal with the old grouchy lady (talk to her, ignore her, make some compromise, get to the treadmill before her)? What are your favorite songs to jam out to on a run (right now I’m loving some Armin Van Buuren!)?
Week 1 of INSANITY is done! And I made it! So here are my observations about it so far:
1) It makes you question your level of fitness. Okay, I know I’m in shape. I know what not being in shape is like (i.e. The Paula of yesteryear who almost passed out from running a mile) and I know what in shape is (i.e. The Paula who worked out multiple times a week, once with a trainer who told her she was more fit than 99% of her clients). INSANITY probably isn’t for you if you’ve never worked out before, just saying. And I’m not saying it isn’t doable for a fitness newbie, but the moves are fast and put a lot of stress on your body. You must have proper form, or you risk injury, so this is why I’m hesitant to recommend it to you are just starting a fitness regime. Major modifications should be made if you aren’t already somewhat in shape, or maybe another Beachbody program is more appropriate!
2) Knees, knees, knees! Protect your knees! Land softly and with knees bent.
3) Legal Highs. Best endorphin high of my life. More than you get when running. Let’s just say that after “Pure Cardio” I may have blasted Journey’s “Don’t Stop Believin’,” danced around the room, and sang at the top of my lungs. This was after having an absolutely horrible day where I had to push myself to not take a nap after work and get my workout in. I then went into the kitchen, saw my housemate and told him how much I LOVE INSANITY.
4) Shaun T. is really hot, positive and understanding. He’s hot because he’s Shaun T. and he has a great smile! He’s positive because he tells you to keep going and says he is “right there with you”. He’s understanding because he makes sure you “know your limits” and to take breaks if you need them. I actually have some not so nice opinions of DVD workout instructors, but I’m a big fan of Shaun T. (especially when he takes his shirt off!)
5) Holy Abs! So I’m not sure how to feel about the fact that my abs are actually becoming firm, muscular and more defined because as this happens, I’m seeing them grow outwards. Let’s note that I’ve always been pretty skinny (thanks for the good genes!) but I’ve never actually had serious abdominal muscles. I do my exercises right and always pull my belly button inward, but still see my stomach actually getting bigger where muscle is growing. It doesn’t look bad, but I’m just not 100% used to it.
In other news, I bought some protein shakes that were on sale at Target. I always feel like I should refuel after a workout, but never know what exactly to drink/eat/etc. They basically taste like flavored milk, yum I guess?
I’m also training for the Monument Avenue 10K in Richmond, VA, on April 13th. Last year, I ran it in 58:10 and would like to PR again this year! I’m running in the seeded 58 minute wave, which is huge for me because four years ago I couldn’t run two miles without stopping! To be in a seeded wave is really exciting for me – it means I’m an actual runner! But I’m trying to keep up with the INSANITY workouts and run too and it’s pretty stressful on my knees. I’m wondering, does anyone have any recommendations to fit running in with INSANITY? If you do, feel free to share!
As for now, I’m starting Week 2! I only really want to upload progress photos every two weeks, but here’s me at the week mark!
Also, because people like to see pictures on these blog things, I’m leaving you with the reason I work out – FOOD.
I love food and use it to reward myself! I try and eat healthy, but I don’t think it’s wrong to indulge every now and then, especially if your workouts make you want to weep on the floor like a small child when you are done.
So here are my beginning-INSANITY photos. I’m pretty shameless, I guess. I think I have a pretty good base to start with, so we’ll see if there are any visible changes, as I post updated pictures every two weeks. Sorry if it’s too much nudity, don’t read the post if you don’t want to see it! I’m documenting my fitness journey and well…fitness is all about changing your body so you might see a little skin here and there…